Well, that glorious moment I remember from last time has come. The doubt that sometimes creeps in is gone. That moment when I look down and can't believe this body is mine. My hard work and dedication can't be denied because it's right there screaming from the roof tops!! It all can't be denied by even my harshest critic....me.
Plus the addict in me probably helps me find some success in something like this.... One track mind, obsessing over getting all of it in, planning my days around one thing. I mean looking back it was always something with me. If it wasn't drinking, it was church. If it wasn't church, it was AA. If it wasn't AA, it was cycling, if it wasn't cycling , it was CrossFit and so on. Always balls to the wall. At least now I try to balance things a little better. I still fail miserably sometimes, but it keeps getting better, and I'm more mindful of it now so... it's a WIN. Thank God my husband is absolutely fantastic with all my mess! Plus he's a really awesome athlete sponsor and being hot as hell doesn't hurt either.
Progress, progress, progress. Positive, positive, positive. Learning, growing and always trying to move forward.
I can't wait to get on that stage. I will be up there posing with confidence next to all those big girls like I'm armed with a pro card. I love it. It's so much fun up there. I can't wait to compare my pics from my first show with this one because I tried hard to get better and I think it will show. Believe it or not I just do this weird madness for fun. So this go around has been pretty awesome. It seemed easier and less tiring for the most kart. This prep has definitely been another positive growing experience in many, many ways. I can't wait to go out to eat with my family and order off the menu!! I can't wait to get that last thirsty hell week out of the way for a while! I can't wait to eat pizza in a blinged out bikini!!!!! Haha!!
Have a great week!
You look so amazing Shayna!!!! Your legs are WAY bigger than last time. No more chicken legs! :)
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